Reflection or Inventory?

Recently, I’ve been thinking about what someone said to me– That I was prostituting myself to the pleasures of the 3 Submissives I was seeing, catering to their pleasures.On one side, I am between r_ Griselda:One relative of me KNOWS, but I know he doesn’t tell all truth.(4 April 2019) Griselda:AND know for sure that they were [...]
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Belinda:
I stayed with her until she fell asleep.
(6 April 2019)

Belinda:
She wanted me to stay with her I did.
(6 April 2019)

Belinda:
My sister was up about all night the other night crying her eyes out I asked her what's wrong she didn't say anything.
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
How to prepare (both mentally and physically) to have sex for the first time?
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
Everytime we are making out and I feel ready either he wants me to give him a handjob instead or I think about it too much and get myself all worked up and worried about it hurting and we don't go any farther than making out.
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
How do I mentally prepare myself?
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
Should he use a finger or something first before actually having sex or just go all in the first time?
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
Should we set a specific day and time or just let it happen when it happens?
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
It's me most of the time and him other times.
(6 April 2019)

Lili:
Everytime we get close, one of us isn't ready.
(6 April 2019)